More healing for my once-fatherless heart happened in the car on my way home today. 

 Bob Hamp writes in Think Differently, Live Differently, "...the story is about the Fathering heart of God restoring the hearts of His sons and daughters. ... Without doing a thing, becoming who you are can change those around you and will ultimately be a part of God making all things new."

I heard Nelson Hawk's song Words on the radio today and his song became the prayer of my heart and my anthem as I've recently become more brave about telling more of my subplot in God's story. 

I turned it up loud and sang along:
             
Let my words be life
Let my words be truth
I don't want to say a word, unless it points the world
Back to You

As the song played, I was declaring (very loudly) that in the telling of my subplot in God's story I wanted to always point people back to Him. 

So all these thoughts about my future were swirling around in my head when the next song came on.  I've heard it a thousand times, but it's never gotten through to me like it did today. 

Matthew West's  Hello, My Name Is undid me and the tears came and one hand is raised.....and the tears spilling over made it hard to drive.  That's when you know you need to pull over and get your worship on.

Hello, my name is child of the one true King
I’ve been saved, I’ve been changed, I have been set free
"Amazing Grace" is the song I sing
Hello, my name is child of the one true King
I am no longer defined
By all the wreckage behind
The one who makes all things new
Has proven it’s true
Just take a look at my life

It's true.  Even though my past has cast a long, dark shadow over my life I am not defined it.   

Why does it always take my heart by surprise when My Heavenly Father finds me in the big middle of my messy life and whispers to me that I Am His Child?  It's enough to make me stop what I'm doing, get my worship on, and exchange my tears for more healing for the still-broken places in my heart.